Michelle Williams reveals how depression almost ended her engagement

Former Destiny’s Child member Michelle Williams had revealed that she broke her engagement to battle her depression. In an exclusive interview with People Magazine, the star shared that soon after her fiance, Chad Johnson, proposed and they started planning their wedding, she fell into a deep depression. The star then broke off her engagement in July then checked herself into a treatment facility.

In the interview, she shared “I thought I was over depression. I thought, ‘I’m good!’ I’ve got love, I’m working out. But I was so angry. The rage built up in me. I did not attempt suicide, but I was questioning [life].”

The star says she hid how she was feeling while prepping for the highly-anticipated performance with her Destiny’s Child members, Beyonce and Kelly at Coachella. “The entire year we were rehearsing every day for hours. I was burying it, and before you knew it, I was looking up out of the pit like, ‘Oh my God. I’d been there before in that darkness,” she says. “I was like ‘No, you better go [to the hospital].’ By the time I got there, I was stable.”

Although the star tried to push Chad away, he stuck around for her. She says “I would’ve understood [if he left],” says Williams. “He’s been praying for a wife. He didn’t pray for a depressed wife.”

The star also shared that after undergoing individual and couple’s counselling, they are back on track and will be getting married soon. Their journey will be documented on their reality show, Chad Loves Michelle.

 

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“You don’t look like you’ve been depressed to me!” I posted about this on Twitter a few weeks ago. That was a statement someone said to me. It almost made me feel guilty for doing the work to feel better, look better and BE BETTER!! I began to wonder how long was I supposed to walk around looking like what I had been through. Now don’t get it twisted, I definitely looked and felt a mess but I made the decision to get it together!! I look at new pictures of me now vs 10 weeks ago and I truly thank God for bringing me this far. I hate to have this conversation again because my friends and family know that I’ve been here before. I just want to encourage someone to smile, get up, brush your teeth, comb your hair, shower, put some bronzer on, get a shape up, put some lotion on your ashy ankles, put something nice on. For those of you unfamiliar with someone going through something…..pray before you speak or just smile at them and keep it moving. With love!! ❤️ Ps: as my mom would say “I don’t wanna have to say this again!” ?Click the link in my bio for my bible plan I created with @YouVersion on anxiety and depression! ❤️#MentalHealth #AmIGettingThickAgain #IHopeSo ?: @frawleyphoto Outfit provided by @juellemonea

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