The author of I’m a Different Mess Than I Was Yesterday, Msizi E. Nkosi tells us about writing the tell-all book.
By: Fundiswa Nkwanyana
1.Who is Msizi?
Most people know me as a content producer. But, I am also a father, a hard-working creative, and now the author of a book detailing the harsh realities of my life.
2. Why did you decide to write a tell-all book?
I had a near-death experience that changed my life. I was in a coma, and doctors thought I was not going to make it. I lost my memory for a while; and during my recovery, I had mixed emotions that I couldn’t verbally express. I then decided to express myself by diary entries, which led to the book. Writing the book was part of my healing process, which I think might help other people going through a similar experience.
3. What are some of the challenges you faced while writing the book?
It was hard to relive painful memories that I had blocked out. I was hospitalised, and used one finger to type it out. I was also afraid of how people would look at me after sharing intimate parts of my life. But, I also wanted to let go of the pain. Getting the book published was also a hassle. I was unhappy with the contracts the publishers offered me – I felt that the deal they were offering was not fair. I made a hard decision and used all my savings to publish the book. It was difficult, but worth all the sleepless nights and stress.
4. Why did you decide to name the book I’m a Different Mess Than I was Yesterday?
The title highlights the fact that I am still not perfect; I’m still a mess and acknowledge it. I have come a long way, and know that I still have a long way to go. The book is a reminder of what I went through and where I am still going.
5. What do you hope for readers to take away from your book?
I hope they will be inspired to change their lives. I want people to learn from my mistakes. They should not give up or lose hope.
